日志
6

The word “democracy” has a high frequency of occurrence.But the information I got from the news I heard these days shows that for the time being, almost all the countries that spend many years fighting for democracy are in a bad situation.

After spending the past years fighting for the so-called democracy instead of developing the condition of the fields such as industry,education,medical treatment and so on, these coutries are now facing with the problems in the reconstruction.

It seems like that  they are building a new country in accordance with the way of the United States. After the World War II,America becomes the strongest power in the world. It attracts many people all around the world boarding the land persuing “America Dream”.

What I intend to discuss in this paper is the propagation of universal values.

我不知道我怎么会写出上面的这些莫名其妙的话的。尼玛真正写东西才觉得自己的英文一塌糊涂啊,所以我不仅是数学物理不好导致我力学学得一塌糊涂,我自以为不错的外语其实也是糟糕透顶,连逻辑正常,语句通顺的小文章都写不好。真是伤心。所以,在这个年纪好好学习才是正经事。

Every relationship has several steps,差不多要进一步了解的那一步时就要开始有伤害了。不是什么太敏感这种无聊的话,让一个人成为朋友其实就是让其成为自己灵魂的一部分。就像我们在长身体的过程中有growing pains,自己的灵魂在扩张完成的那个过程中,必然也有很多痛苦。很多人看上去有很多朋友的样子,但在我看来那不是朋友,玩伴而已,填充彼此的空虚寂寞,再顺便赠送点多余的感情,自己欺骗自己那是友谊。不过人的关系广了势必不会深下去——Law of conservation of energy。

For me,the worst of the process is letting others to know more about me.The feeling of unsafety hurts when I am exposed to others. Gossips and others‘ thinkings made me nervous.All that I did in the past two years is to make myself not care about these things.    I went to other circles to get to know other people, I learned social skills to make myself more confident, I tried to make me stronger and I thought I have already grown up. But in this moment, a shadow of bad premonition covers on my head again.

If this is a hard condition puzzling someone else, I’ll tell him or her: Please trust people.

stranger under my skin

 

3

suspended

这是之前准备雅思的时候背的单词,悬而未决。

大四的这个秋天,正适合用这样一个词来形容。现在别人一问“你是工作啊还是读研啊”我就头疼,也只是客套的问候吧,毕竟我以前也常这么问学长学姐们。问话者未必有多关心答案,回答者却是十分为难,尤其是对于我这种。虽然大家都是悬而未决,保研狗除外,但是我还是没有勇气跟别人说,我要出国啊。很没有底气啊。APS也还没过德福也还没考,之前去考的雅思也是那样不上不下的分数,都还不知道用不用得到。中介自然是说越高越好,但是尼玛我没精力折腾了呀,上周日写了一个句子被Björn弄出了六个错误啊!!!这让我十分担心自己的德语,所以决定要开始好好看德语。我一向是个做事没有计划性的人,但是自从有了想去德国的想法后,感觉自己开始制定很多计划,比如打算本周看完Kaltes Blut,真心捉急自己的语法,要反应好久,真是老了。

以前觉得自己对未来没有期望认为自己是没有希望的人,现在又很害怕现实。

请学会忍受孤独。